Realization.

Tonight at the Gathering it was spoken by someone that God uses the times of loneliness in our lives as a want to draw us closer to Him. That resonates with me greatly. So many times I feel alone...so many times I have temptation to have those in my life that shouldn't be there, just so I won't feel so lonesome.
I really need to get this in my head...I'm not alone...He is with me. I just need to seek Him out, spend the time of loneliness with Him instead of acting in a "woe is me" attitude. You think I would've gotten it after I was told that God wants me to know I'm never alone, He's with me and wants me to be with Him in those times I feel lonely, that amazing night in Mexico. Or after I've talked with those I look up to and they've told me that God wants me to draw closer to Him in my loneliness. This is hitting me heavy right now. I don't necessarily feel lonely, like "Oh, no one hangs out with me," (although that does happen), but a lot of "I'm going through this right now...no one is beside me." That is a lie. There are so many people that have my back...given me an encouraging word about those situations, lifted me up in prayer. I think the Enemy has really found one of my weakest points and is trying to wear me down in it. I can't let him do that. I won't. I'm not going to say that and be inactive in that. No sir. I say this with intent, as one who is going to actively say a loud NO! to the devil and a silent yes to God, knowing He will hear and help me.

That was totally not what I got on here to write about.
I was actually going to write about how I feel hypocritical about a few things, and how I'm slowly getting rid of the hypocrisy I spew, but instead am trying to follow what I've told others. Practice what I preach. I guess what was truly on my heart came out instead.