Leaving it behind.

My day, my week, my month...
Thinking how I want to send this to someone that wounded my soul so much...and how when they last saw me, they saw a jaded kid, one they made that way. But how forgiveness has set in my heart...truly set in.
So, I leave this here, knowing they will not see this, knowing I have tried telling this person this before, and that someday, they shall know...I just hope the forgiveness I seek for my bitterness will lead them to ask for forgiveness for what they did.
It is still good.



I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was

I found my way around
To forgiving you some time ago
But I never got to tell you so...

I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was

When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend
It was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you

Thinkin' it's a funny thing
Figured out I could sing
Now I'm not who I was
Write above love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
I'm not who I was

I was thinkin' maybe
I should let you know
That I am not the same
But I never did forget your name
Hello...

And the thing I find most amazing
Is amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was...