If I coast into weird stuff during this blog, it's because I'm trying to watch 'Be Kind, Rewind' while writing this...
I've decided I should blog more. Well, others have helped me make that decision.
Anywho, things lately have been interesting. Picking up pace. It seems like I'm either out doing something until 1-3 AM, or out of town. In fact, I'll be going to my good ol' hometown of Michigan City, IN, in a week and a half. :)
One thing I can say is I definitely need to be relying on God more. And stop worrying about what others think about me. Lately, the littlest things will set stuff off in my mind. Like, friends will do things that I think make me such a low, low option in their book, and I go "Oh, guess I'm not worth much, eh?" (everything I want to write isn't translating over well, I feel...) I totally know better though.
It's also dawned upon me that it's time I lived in the real world. High school's been over. College is upon me. And I don't know what I want to do. I have no job, except for the work I do online for my dad that does get me a fair amount of money. Annnd, the thing everyone likes to bug me about, I have no license. (I do have my last driving hour on the 30th...then I can take the test...so--pray that I pass that sucker) I feel lame for being 20 (wooo...August 28th, celebrate my birthday for me!) and that I have so little accomplished that matters to people in the real world. I've overcome a lot in my life, and in the "real world" that doesn't matter to many. Everything I've said I'd like to do with my life, people say is too impossible...reasoning mainly that since I dropped out of high school once (decision bred from high levels of anxiety), and that I couldn't make it through the extra schooling I'd have to go through.
I feel so old for just turning 20. Life has worn me out. I've let it wear me out. I refuse to let that happen anymore though. I'm going for things head-on. Watch out for me. I tell you...watch out for me.
I think I would like to write a book. Stories from life. About the people I know. That's very random, but true. And maybe you, the person reading this, maybe I'd like to write about you.
Mexico is soon...so soon. It's gonna be sweet. To see that love has no language, has no bounds.
To be humbled like crazy. To have God move like crazy. I can't wait to see the kids again, the staff. To bless them and be blessed by them.
And maybe I'll get to conquer that 'mountain' again. ;-)
<3,
Laura, LD, Leezer, LDePeel, etc.
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3 comments:
Aw, amazing blog Laura!
And so very true.
The "real world" sucks. :P
But you know what, the things that the world thinks matter God may not call you to as His disciple.
OH and BTW: Some of the most amazing people I know who have had a huge impact on my life never got their license until they were 19 and up. So there! ;)
I am excited for your Mexico trip. You will have to let me know all about it when you get back!
And that movie... I'm STILL trying to understand that dern title.
Exactly how many people do you know have had a huge impact on your life and never got their license until they were 19 and up?
Pfft...you're gonna have to tell me all about your Bolivia trip when you get back!!
Well, the movie store is called Be Kind Rewind movies. So, it probably has to do with that. And VHS tapes always said "Be kind, rewind" when you rented them...so...there ya go. :)
Off the top of my head...2. Two *in a sing songy voice* amazinggggg people.
My cousin and one of my Best friends.
So, fo sho yo. ;)
Ahhhh, I think I get it now!
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