If you catch this...

Let's go to Canada...I want to be where yaks can run free!


I hate feelings, and how much of an influence they have on you. I don't feel like this could go well, so I might as well skip the whole thing. That was rather vague, but you get the concept. We've all been there. I want to skip where I'm at. The part of waiting, wondering, if things are going anywhere. Just skip to the part of knowing...is all of this supposed to be something? Or is this as far as it goes? Why must I be so vague! Well, I guess I just feel like it. =P That, and some of you don't deserve to know things. Some of this applies to many areas of my life. But I think mostly I'm just speaking to one specific part at the moment.
I feel like I can't be 100% honest with most people at the time. And the people I wish to be 100% honest with I just goof off with in conversations with. There's only one person I am truly honest with, and well, he's a guy. Heh. But still, I can't spit that out to him. So, guess I'm not really 100% honest with him either, eh?
If the world was just straight-forward.
Didn't rely on feelings.
Didn't care about feelings.
What would that be like? I wonder sometimes.
Would that be easier, or would that just be more hurt?
I hate sometimes when I overthink things. I think it's one of my flaws. My brain goes spastic and becomes way too overactive. I overanalyze. Or I don't think about things not enough. I don't about things rationally. It keeps me up at night a lot.
I find my solace for that really nowhere. Just pick apart the thoughts one by one until I can try and get down to a few thoughts, and try not to worry about them. They still come up in my sleep, in my dreams. It's the strangest thing!

Brian is showing me a giant block of cheese. My stomach is now aching. AH! DAIRY!
I shall depart on that vomit inducing note.