No Plan B

Well, not much to write about really...
I graduated for real from Studio...I have nothing to do now. I'm looking for jobs and trying to get my license, but in the meantime....nothing. I hang out with no one...I just sit at home all day, thinking...and that can be dangerous.
I've messed up, I'll admit that. I've only confessed my big mistake to one person however...I think that's because I feel I must uphold this sense of being alright...even though that probably does not come across at all, despite my trying. I just feel that being a leader, I must be fine all the time. Must spare my problems from anyone else. Cass, I know you're reading this at some point---that's honestly why I believe I broke down that one Sunday...
Now to move on, and forgive myself for doing this.
Youth group feels like a huge division. I don't like it. Not among kids, no. But among some leaders...I've been told by some of them that we are all on the wrong path and that it's the end of times, and of course that's why we don't agree with them...because we're wrong, and in the end we shall see, and we shall perish. Um...pretty sure falling on your face, weird dancing, rolling on the floor, things like that, are NOT salvation issues. It's just dumb. I hate it. I also hate biting my tongue and resisting speaking up about it all. Speaking to them, to others, about how I feel about it.
But then again, I have nothing to prove to those people...
I know where I'm going. I know that I am indeed on the right path for once...that I am saved, and no one's words can rip that away from me. It's right there in Romans 8:31-39.

ONE love. ONE God. ONE way.

---if I ever have anything of value to say for once, I'll put the words in bold. ;-)