Christy, this one is for you.

Whoever wrote the blog entry below this one is an amazing author. ;-) (Love ya beautiful friend!)

Now, I figured I should write an entry based off of the response I got from Christy in the "I wanna write a blog, but give me ideas." blog. So, Mrs. Cass, or as I should call you, faithful reader ;-), this one is for you...(and I suppose whoever else may read)

Well, my goals for this year are pretty much these things: get my license and a car (just the license would do for now, because I'm pretty sure I could borrow one of the parental's cars), get a job (need to mention these first two things I've mentioned I'm working on, they've just not happened yet), figure out what I want to go to school for (maybe just do generals) and when and where, make it an entire year plus sober (Sunda will be back to the one month mark, once again), and just press forward in my walk with God everyday.
My passions, I'm sometimes unsure of. I love to write things, even if they may suck in my opinion. Uh...yeah...that's about it...
What makes my heart hurt? Could I form that into what I have a heart for? I have a heart for people, well kids, who have been abused and who have been hung up on some sort of addiction. Probably because I've been there... But...I feel like it doesn't translate...like people don't see that I have a heart for that. Also, I do have more passions, but why waste time sharing them when they won't be recognized? I hate that...
What is God teaching me? A lot... That I need to break down walls, that's a big one. I go off about how I want people in my life, wah wah loneliness, but how can I expect people to be there when I just have a big barrier there? I'm slowly letting my guard down to very few people, but I keep putting it up very quickly when things start to feel uncomfortable. It makes me think of when we were in Mexico, and Jerry said to me something about how I shouldn't keep my guard up all the time...
Maybe I'm still jaded or not grabbing onto what God fully has for me. I feel like there's more...but I'm not sure what...
I'm also learning...I have no idea who I am, honestly. It's like I've spent so much time trying to find myself in other things or people, that I lost me. And so...the journey continues?
I feel like I've crossed the border into confusing right now.
I'm not sure about a lot of things at the moment. I feel like just sitting somewhere and crying for a long time. Honestly.

I see I am kind've beating around the bush again. I'm sorry Christy. I DO need to work on that.