Tired and Uninspired

I've lost my flame. There's nothing near to spark me.
I can't grasp it to be honest. I try, but the things of the world grab a hold of me.
Why does it have to be so hard? To live for God that is...
I want to be different. I want them to see Him in me.
I know some see that, because at school I get voted "Most likely to be a Sunday school teacher" or stuff like that. But that doesn't mean much to me.
I want to make a DIFFERENCE.
And maybe I have been.
Like in kids' lives at youth group...I feel like I don't do enough for them, but sometimes all you can do is talk to them, give them advice you hope is good, and pray.
I just feel burnt out. I feel like I'm getting nothing back.
I just need some source of encouragement in my life.
I need to look to God for things of this nature, I know.
But it's so easy when you get peoples approval. And that blows.
Why can't I just be satisfied with who God says I am?
With how God sees me?
I have the heart, I have passion--which is still intact, maybe just a little faded.
I just need to lay it down...these secrets I keep holding onto...the desires, the fear, the contentment. And maybe while I'm there, laying those things down at His feet, I'll stay there for a while...spend some time with my Father and praise Him for much He's done for me. I haven't done that for a while.
Sounds like a good plan.
Surrender is a daily thing. Not a once in a lifetime deal.
May it be a part of my everyday life from now on!